Finding calm and empowerment in dealing with T1D pump malfunctions
My pump died last week.
I heard a weird beep coming from my pump. When I looked down and saw the red letters MALFUNCTION, I knew all too well what it meant.
My first thought was “nooooooo”.
And then immediately I thought “Oh well, I’ll just get a new one”.
And I felt calm.
Then, I thought about how this used to go when something like this happened.
I would have thoughts like:
🔸I hate diabetes
🔸It’s not fair
🔸Diabetes ruins everything
🔸Why do things like this always happen to me
And I would feel:
I would have been bitchy toward the pump customer service rep, and I would have stewed for hours.
Instead, my thought “oh well, I’ll just get a new one”, created a feeling of
So when I talked to the pump rep, I was totally cool, calm, and collected (and NICE).
The best part of the whole experience was that all of this happened so automatically.
I’ve worked really hard to think thoughts on purpose about T1D over the last few years. I’ve identified my thoughts creating my anger, and I’ve created thoughts to think on purpose that help me to feel better (less mad, less angry, or calmer). The more thoughts I think on purpose, the more automatic this work becomes!
Another cool thing happened. Because I was in a calm, neutral space, I actually got to enjoy a few days’ break from the pump. My sugars were a little all over the place on shots, but it was a fun feeling to be footloose and fancy-free without the pump on me!
Want help pre-programming your thoughts to feel calmer? I can help!